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if ignorance is bliss
then why are the uneducated dealing with all these hardships
no one is really dumb
it’s just dependent on where you are coming from
there are those who hit and those who get bruises
being impressionable is just apart of being human
except some are left unscarred
but not untethered
a forward an reverse reaction
a need for attachment
relationships feeding off mental harassment
climb up the social ladder
see who gets their faster
accumulate accumulate
is this what makes the human race so great?

– g.c.

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we may be burying these bodies
but that doesn’t mean we should treat them like dirt
creating a heavy load for the earth to carry what we have already worn

or we may be burnt to ashes
that doesn’t mean we should become fragile and crumble
allowing ourselves to be carried away in the whirlwind of life

– g.c.

i’m too familiar with these memories and emotions

so i’ve kept trying to change them

but i can only create new ones

not replace them

but the new ones have come as a reminder

in time i’ll have to face fears

let go of the people and feelings of the past

and stand on my own

at the end of the day i am not without love

even if i am alone

 

move on – g.c.

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Come to your senses
Break down the fences
Guarding your heart
Your mind is alert
But your soul is still asleep
Wandering with the sheep
Stand above it all
You are not crazy for hearing a different call
The shepherds voice
Is not your only choice
Anywhere you wish to go
Be quiet, patient, and know

– g.c.

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the lines carved into my palms imitate the lines of the water
seen within the reflection of the sunlight
connected to a source
pure life
i don’t know where this image is being projected from
all i know is the gratitude that fills my heart because i get to witness this movie with my eyes
and feel the pressure being carried down through the sky
to cool the earth and keep me alive

i love the lonely nights

when i sit in spite of the clock

its tedious tick

has the characteristic of a gnawing itch

it is a mind game

i win

i make the rules

decide if i will be eluded

i’ve grown stronger now

my perception reaches beyond deception

the quiet night

quiet like myself

words floating closer to the surface

quickly I catch them

spoken

my views face discretion

i will never get them

so i am here on my own

thank god i no longer cling and know how to be alone

if they only knew gentleness

delicate enough to hold the truth

they’d be thrown

the world would spin around and head closer to home

the stars we’ve been shown

but fear kept us from knowing

the pain is showing

i psychoanalyze each and every encounter

i must deal with disguise but i won’t stop trying

because my hunger is not for a lies

try to offer and soothe

hoping the gentle and calm will bring about anxiety and hatred’s demise

those feelings harbor dark places for the ego to thrive

it’s time it was brushed off

for i can see it in their eyes

their shoulders are tired

it is difficult enough to put up the facade

to hold all this weight

dreams crushed instead of made

they can still be saved

i am still hopeful

the night is my rope still

i hold on to move on

forgiveness

i am mending

intertwined with the divine

grasp onto the line

let it lift you

high enough to see the light

then you’ll see just as i

even though the night is dark and lonely

everything is alright

you will be fine

 

stream of consciousness – g.c.

i can not feel bad for desiring to be alone.

just me and my mind.

i can not continue to resist the obligation i feel to immerse myself in the external world.

the force i put on myself to be amongst others and to be normal

wears me down,

so that the pull inside of me that begs for me to nurture the self

gets tired and i let go of who i am all together.

i lose my hold on myself,

and become small in the large chaos of the material world.

i can no longer bare to hurt myself like this,

so i will immerse myself in both worlds.

when there is agitation in either,

i will sit at the seat of my soul,

and know all that is outside of me is within me.

i can chose who i am in the present,

and nothing can ever change that,

because all there ever really is is change.