i’ve fallen in love with change and uncertainty

a worldly experience pours into my consciousness

i allow it to flow through me

fill every aspect of my being

i am not drained

these challenges have warmed the blood in my body

and kept my heartbeat steady

each inflow and outflow of breath is another second i am alive

never asleep, never still

constant

constant movement of thoughts, emotion, fear, love

i am not held by any of these

each moment is different to the next

so this must mean i am free

i am free to change and stop resisting the fact that circumstances will never stay the same

i am free to choose

 

i’ll choose to be like a black raven beating its wings underneath the sun of the Indian summer

enduring the heat

expecting the changes of Autumn

 

change- g.c.

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the sky so blue,

even cobwebs too,

these things so mysteriously perfect,

remind me that earth is worth it

 

we do not need to question it,

and see what we can get from it,

we just need to love and sit in awe

of the beauty we are apart of,

 

we too have the ability to create art ,

just as our earth continues to,

when new flowers bloom,

and green grass catches dew

 

– g.c.

just as nature

we all appear so simple

but looks deceive

in actuality

we are all so vast and complex

you are someone only you can fully know

don’t ever look for the answers to another’s mystery

give up your desire to know

because like nature

no one is just one answer

but many

too many to manage

too many to make sense of

but to break it down

make it simple

we are infinite

infinite love

and that is all that matters

chemistry – g.c.

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the wind sweeps over you
taking your worries with you
whispering to you
that your troubles have no reason to remain
the sun kisses your skin
healing all that is within
the high you feel
just to breathe in something so real
so authentic
nothing can replace it
the joy of being
all that i am seeing
is being
stillness
movement
life
the quiet and simple noises
take away the shouting voices
until responsibility calls me away
the beauty leaves me with nothing to say
just asking me to lie with it all day
be apart of the universe
there is nothing worse
than to get caught up in the cycle of doing
forgetting the beauty of the moment
but here in this place
happiness is not far from your reach
lying here so long the sun has turned me peach
it feels as if i’ll never leave
but when I do
an inner peace will be taken too
and for the last time I watch the trees sway
i cannot stay
so i go inside
something has changed
my soul can no longer hide

outside – g.c.

*Answers Own Question*

Why Do I Exist? (questions we ask ourselves at 2 in the morning)…

You exist, because there is no universe without you; there is no other you that can share the same view or even the same universe, not with their eyes.

You are a mind that gives matter; there is matter to your mind. You give and are being. The universe’s being is held up in your disguise. You are being, because you can’t not be. You can change, but something will always exist. There is no point in running away from life.

Your being is meant here. It is not by coincidence, the places you appear. Purpose. Feel it. Cherish your purpose. Let it grow. Be and follow your purpose as you are right now. Nurture purpose and your existence. Purpose is your nature. Your nature is in strength, muster this strength, this purpose.

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if you have felt warmth from the sun,

felt the gentle handshake of the wind,

the caress of the skin,

you are not alone.

you can feel safe knowing the world,

like a mother,

will care for you,

its arms are always open.

run into them.

feel the world wrapped around you.

its love is infinite and always there.

it is up to you to feel it.

it is up to you to forgive.

control is yours.

you own your decisions.

you can decide to love and feel loved,

or you can close your eyes,

and hide the world’s beauty and love,

decide that the world has hurt you,

and that is all you will ever feel,

hurt.

so choose love.

love yourself.

do not hurt yourself.

 

love is the option you gain, when you surrender your security – g.c.

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i strongly dislike and resist the concept of time.

it feels like a barrier.

it feels unnatural.

look at the world around you.

the ocean doesn’t know what time it is when it brings in the tide.

the bird doesn’t know when it wakes up.

it’s rhythm.

it’s knowing.

why must we resist every aspect of our nature?

man made time – g.c.

 

seasons

cropped-img_5503.jpgi want to paint my life,
like the sun paints the sky every morning and every evening,
i want to become enveloped by beauty and glory,
all my own creation,
the people that come into my life and stay,
they’ll be the portraits,
the people you can look at for so long,
you come to know them without speaking.

i’ll paint my worries as the leaves,
so when autumn comes they will all fall away with ease.

ill paint myself as a tree in the winter,
free of all its worries,
yet naked and vulnerable,
completely bare,
unable to hide,
raw and real,
vulnerable to change.

when new ideas begin to bud,
spring comes,
and i will be the flower,
young and new,
reborn,
intrinsically delicate and beautiful,
able to soak in the sun and dance in the rain,
yet prepared for heavy storms.

when summer arrives,
i’ll paint myself as a California flower,
thriving under the heat,
while others cower away.

i’ll paint myself as all the seasons,
always changing,
always room for growth,
always room on the canvas to paint life in a new direction,
no need to worry,
because there is always a new beginning

seasons – Grace Condon