i’m too familiar with these memories and emotions

so i’ve kept trying to change them

but i can only create new ones

not replace them

but the new ones have come as a reminder

in time i’ll have to face fears

let go of the people and feelings of the past

and stand on my own

at the end of the day i am not without love

even if i am alone

 

move on – g.c.

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Climate Change

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Earth’s climate is in a constant state of change. Day to day we witness the weather change, but rarely notice the long term changes of our climate that are taking place. The climate is what the weather is like overall in a certain area. Climate change can have different effects on the environment and the way we live. Some of these effects may be negative. Different factors affect how the climate changes. The most important factor to consider is the one we have the most control over, which is ourselves.

What may seem like simple choices that humans make can have very large consequences for the climate and environment. For example, it seems the obvious choice for transportation for most people is to drive a car, or ride the bus or a subway, rather than take the time to walk or ride a bike, however, it appears that this can contribute to climate change. It does so by releasing CO2, a greenhouse gas, into the air. Greenhouse gases in the atmosphere cause the earth to retain heat. An excess in greenhouse gases can cause the earth to trap too much heat, changing the climate to be too warm. However, this is not the only affect human’s have on the climate. Our diet has a large impact as well. Animal agriculture appears to be the leading cause of climate change:

  • Farm animals release methane gas, which is twenty times stronger than carbon dioxide at trapping methane gas in our atmosphere.
  • Animal agriculture accounts for 65% of nitrous oxide emissions which is three hundred times stronger than carbon dioxide at trapping heat in the atmosphere

 Humans can also alter the climate through deforestation and growing large amounts of crops for long periods of time. Without trees and other plants to absorb the CO2 in the atmosphere this leads to a concentration of greenhouse gases, shifting the climate to be warmer in that area. Connections have also been found between deforestation and drought, since clouds require moisture and forests store moisture that, when evaporated, aids in the formation of clouds.  Another deliberate human effect is solar radiation management, which is an attempt to “cool” the planet. Different methods are used to reflect sunlight and reduce the amount of C02 in the air. Some examples of this are using plastic polymers to pull gas from the air and stratospheric sulfate aerosols to reflect sunlight. These methods meant to aid in maintaining our planet’s climate seem to be taking a turn for the worst and creating more problems with the climate such as imploding arctic ice and methane eruptions.

It is not only due to humans that the climate changes. Earth’s climate has always shifted over the course of it’s lifetime. For example, it was once covered with ice. This is due to natural events that have taken place. An example of a natural event that could shift earth’s climate is a volcanic eruption. The dust and ash from these eruptions reflect solar radiation, which cools the earth. This also changes the land that surrounds where the eruption occurred including the soil and plant growth, which  also affects the climate of an area. Another common thing that affects climate is water vapor,  an abundant greenhouse gas, in the Earth’s atmosphere. Water vapor works with temperature basically in a cycle. An increase in temperature triggers an increase in water vapor, and when there is more water vapor the air in turn is warmer. When water vapor concentration increases, it condenses into clouds, which reflects solar radiation, helping to cool the planet. Water vapor and volcanic eruption are only a couple, amongst many, nonhuman factors that help shift climate. Both of these factors contribute to the cooling of the planet. It is important to have knowledge of earth’s ever-changing climate, because it is going to affect us in the long run.

To reduce the negative impacts of climate change, we may begin to create and drive more fuel efficient eco-friendly cars or seek other modes of transportation. We may also incorporate things into ours household that are eco-friendly, such as solar panels and fluorescent light bulbs. Industries can begin to use renewable energy sources such as wind energy. Another, more obvious but important way we can help earth’s climate is to recycle. Double checking to see what is recyclable and taking the extra time to do so can really help. But, something that is essential to preserving our environment and controlling the climate, is to change the way we view food and how we eat. It is important for us as well, so we may fully function and contribute to society to take care of ourselves. What we put into our bodies ultimately affects every aspect of our lives. This is our vessel for getting around and we must not take that for granted. We must not take our environment for granted as well. Lastly, we may petition and protest against geoengineering and deforestation, so that the planet may naturally resolve its issues, without human interference. Here is more on the corrupt science behind geoengineering programs:

i can not feel bad for desiring to be alone.

just me and my mind.

i can not continue to resist the obligation i feel to immerse myself in the external world.

the force i put on myself to be amongst others and to be normal

wears me down,

so that the pull inside of me that begs for me to nurture the self

gets tired and i let go of who i am all together.

i lose my hold on myself,

and become small in the large chaos of the material world.

i can no longer bare to hurt myself like this,

so i will immerse myself in both worlds.

when there is agitation in either,

i will sit at the seat of my soul,

and know all that is outside of me is within me.

i can chose who i am in the present,

and nothing can ever change that,

because all there ever really is is change.

 

i see people who have never lived their truth

envy the youth

draw a line to divide those who have lived longer

but still wander

they are not fine

or wise

they have just grown tired                                                  of being naive

                              so to satisfy displease

they pretend that they know

this is wrong                                             that is right

do not fight

what they say

not only lies but consequences too have been made

punished for finding your truth

while you are still considered to be in your youth

you know yourself all too well                                                                too soon

its good to be lost

                    have to follow a boss

veer away from the line

don’t dare cross

thats what they say

but the fire in your belly put you here today

to stand up

not obey

and proudly say

that i am who i am

and i don’t give a damn

fuck the perfect plan

i’ll draw my path

won’t fear your wrath

i have my own

i’ll never be without a home

i’ll follow my soul

and will never be told

to sit down

or that faith can’t be found

it is all within

my story will begin

and i’ll have real tales

of wisdom

     for children who listen

                           to not just me

but stay curious                                                                      and search for more than they see

 

 

old souls in a new world – g.c.

 

i know there are those who feel pride,

when they tear others apart.

it brings them a feeling of joy,

of power and dominance.

that feeling that they get is their own illusion.

they do not deserve pride from believing they have destroyed someone,

like they have bettered themselves.

 

you can only destroy yourself.

no one can hurt you.

responsibility and pride for destroying beautiful minds lies in the wrong hands.

allowing what others say to you and what they do to you affect what you do,

is ultimately everyone’s mistake.

it’s handing over control.

responsibility lies within for each individual’s actions.

all cruelty,

even if it is aimed toward yourself,

especially if for what someone did or said to you,

is unjust.

we rarely take notice of how we treat ourselves.

so,

destruction triumphs,

and the cycle is carried on.

flowering minds,

demolished.

jealousy and ignorance are imperative elements for this chain reaction of hurting to occur.

it’s a repetitive, chaotic, damaging ripple effect.

and this is our state.

we are our makers.

yet,

this seems far from our choosing.

the cycle is to blame of our state.

but responsibility still lies within choice,

within the individual.

it is really so difficult to justify human behavior.

our vices have become our mechanics.

our state reaps destruction.

this is our society.

no more pity parties.

no more grudges.

responsibility is due,

and so is change.

forgive,

and learn from yours and others mistakes.

 

retire blame and vengeance , bring abot forgiveness and change – g.c.

Purpose

i surrender to the day.

i wake up to white walls,

and decide how i will color my mood.

i am fatigued.

i know i don’t have to be.

i can get up, energize myself,

but everyday i consider doing nothing.

i could just lay for hours never truly waking,

but there is a hunger inside of me,

a knowing,

that once I make it passed tired thoughts I am bound to experience something.

something,

that will assure me that it is worth the push to be awake.

the experiences start with something as simple as the sun illuminating my room.

although the shades are down, reflections dance around.

i can not see the sky beyond the windows,

but i feel the movement of the clouds.

the warm sunlight fades to a cool payne’s grey,

then quickly shifts back to the warm hues ablaze,

golden yellow.

i feel like i am floating.

i am reminded of change.

i am reminded of freedom.

it is worth it to be awake.

i am then reminded of love, as i look into the deep wide eyes of my dogs.

i am flashed a dopey smile and greeted with kisses,

i see my soul reflected back to me.

i am connected to everything.

it is worth it to be awake.

next,

it is the joy and laughter that fill the kitchen as my brother hops around goofily dancing,

entertained by,

and completely in love with himself.

he laughs.

i laugh with him.

i feel my heart dance to the sound of our chuckles.

i am glad i am awake for this.

lastly,

it is the peace i feel as i finally step out into the warm sunlight and just breathe.

as long as i am breathing,

i am awake.

as long as i am awake and there is life inside this body, and I can absorb the sensations around me, then there is worth.

then,

there is purpose.

and,

with purpose,

i can not close my eyes.

 

– g.c.

too often i find myself in places where i am not truly wanted

i remain silent

heart sinking

keeping truth bottled up

but space to hide is limited

ideas far too wide to keep inside

so i seek solitude

locking myself away

i am ironically free

 

there was once a time where i did not know

so i would listen

i too sat and nodded

now i get up and leave

something changed

 

ignorance and small talk are no longer for me

 

conditioned conversation – g.c.

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the wind sweeps over you
taking your worries with you
whispering to you
that your troubles have no reason to remain
the sun kisses your skin
healing all that is within
the high you feel
just to breathe in something so real
so authentic
nothing can replace it
the joy of being
all that i am seeing
is being
stillness
movement
life
the quiet and simple noises
take away the shouting voices
until responsibility calls me away
the beauty leaves me with nothing to say
just asking me to lie with it all day
be apart of the universe
there is nothing worse
than to get caught up in the cycle of doing
forgetting the beauty of the moment
but here in this place
happiness is not far from your reach
lying here so long the sun has turned me peach
it feels as if i’ll never leave
but when I do
an inner peace will be taken too
and for the last time I watch the trees sway
i cannot stay
so i go inside
something has changed
my soul can no longer hide

outside – g.c.

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i feel an energy flood

my heart opens up

like a pristine lotus in the sunlight

amidst the season of fire

transforming

rising from the depths

higher

then returning to that peaceful place within

blooming

beyond the surface as i rise

i see my true identity

reflecting back to me

clarity

sprung from the earth

which i recognize its hum as the comfort of a mother

roots running deep

beyond this place

my spirit

unrecognizable by face

tethered by soul

floating so free

more vibrant than a water lily

 

divine connection – g.c.